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3月3日

pull me under

我爱你。
我爱你们。
 
Dream Theater:  Pull me under
 

Lost in the sky

Clouds roll by

and I roll with them

Arrows fly

Seas increase

and then fall again



This world is spinning around me

This world is spinning without me

Every day send future to past

Every breath leaves me one less

to my last



Watch the sparrow falling

Gives new meaning to it all

If not today nor yet tomorrow

then some other day



I'll take seven lives for one

And then my only father's son

As sure as I did ever love him

I am not afraid



This world is spinning around me

The whole world keeps

spinning around me

All life is future to past

Every breath leaves me one less

to my last



Pull me under

Pull me under

Pull me under I'm not afraid

All that I feel is honor and spite

All I can do is set it right



Dust fills my eyes

Clouds roll by

and I roll with them

Centuries cry

Orders fly

and I fall again



This world is spinning inside me

The whole world is

spinning inside of me

Every day sends future and past

Every step brings me closer

to my last



Pull me under

Pull me under

Pull me under I'm not afraid

Living my life too much in the sun

Only until your will is done

2月27日

我在这儿等着你回来

我在这儿等着你回来,安安静静,听着音乐。
妈的有点小幸福。
2月20日

吐血继续

我喜欢听DT,我不排DT。徐平你去郁闷吧!为了音乐我确实要买一个硬盘。
 
Dream Theater AfterLife

I touched with one
who made me run
away from my own soul...
In this world with its
many illusions
We are moving like mice through a
maze
And now I find
what's left behind
has served to make me whole
full of doubt, deception, and delusion
seeking purpose to all earthly days
I search within
beneath a skin
that bears both pleasure and pain
In a world full of constant confusion
I will not be a par to the craze
In the Afterlife
will dark be bright?
will cold be warm?
will the day have no night?
In the Afterlife?
will the blind have sight?
In the Afterlife
Behind closed eyes
some comfort lies
In knowing the truth never spoken
Through this world with us
hidden conclusion
we'll keep moving like mice through
a maze
In the Afterlife
will dark be bright?
will cold be warm?
will the day have no night?
In the Afterlife?
will the blind have sight?
In the Afterlife
In the Afterlife
will dark be bright?
will cold be warm?
will the day have no night?
In the Afterlife?
will the blind have sight?
In the Afterlife
 
心智信心,建立在对自己身体的了解之上。
 
分页。
 
唉……看起来那天我使出的肘击纯属意外,今天无聊练了一练:我连个篮球都无法准确击中。我爱ufc,我爱技术活。
中午明明吃的很饱,在运动到第一个小时结束的时候竟然已经饿得头昏眼花,但还是咬牙挺下来三百个投篮:投不中一个做两个指撑,不行陷入了恶性循环,越做越投不进……精疲力竭。
很好很好,这样我就没力气装了。再见~
 
Dream Theater   The Killing Hand

I. the observance
An angel’s kiss now fallen
Descending scarlet cuts the sky
Faded names left on the wall
Honor the fighting leave life to die
Remembered is the sacrifice but
No praisal of blood still flowing
Who were the leaders?
What controlled the killing hand
That caused this mourning?
Crossing over...

Ii. ancient renewal
Lowered deep into the sea
Being awaits to cleanse his soul
Senses weakening time is still
Motionless by stiffening cold

The wheels race back and
Scorch his mind
Travelling all to find the land
Revelation warms a touch
And now, he will begin to
Understand

Iii. the stray seed
Extended a view to yesterday
Manifestation for none the same
Walking amidst a frightening still
No sound, no smoke, no scorching
Flames
He is risen...

Sipping his poison the raven sings
Yet another to add more bodies fallen
King from below
This one controls
The killing hand that caused this mourning.
Is it all over?

Iv. thorns
Evil genius this secret plan
Mercy dealt with the losing hand
Will he ever fell?
Can he end it all?
Our savior must make his stand

Only a prophet of years to come
Wanting mortality I’m all alone
He heard my voice
It was my choice
I’ve stopped the killing hand

V. exodus
When I go back again
Will it be the same?
I’ve stopped the cries
But now they know my name

The sea is calling me
My spirit must return
As I get closer,
Was it really worth
What I have learned?

I’m in the valley
And the saddened chimes I hear
Race toward the wall to find
One more name appears

No one is left now
My one and only land
I laugh at what I’ve done
I am the killing hand

 
 

不够不够。。。继续继续

Artist: Nirvana
Title: All Apologies
Album: Nirvana
 
What else should I be
All apologies
What else should I say
Everyone is gay
What else should I write
I don't have the right
What else should I be
All apologies
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married
Buried
I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezeburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married
Buried
Married
Buried
Yeah, yeah yeah yeah

All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
 
MD汤居然真的没有认识做图像处理的。。。
 

年初二

看到题目又是好悲好悲的,哈哈哈哈哈哈,其实各位英雄不晓得的是有一种心情叫做雀跃。
这两天一只在郁闷的一件事是中关村停业过年,买不成相机。明天六大商厦之一的e世界开门营业,我终于可以去买相机和移动硬盘。
最兴奋的当然是朱小宝毕业设计过的希望大增,只要再搞一个小实用程序就ok了,教授真是好人,我虽然从未见过您,我还是在这儿真诚的感谢你~~~~噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢,以兴奋就博下了假文艺的面纱。。看来我和杨畅之流还差得远,哈哈。
伟大的blue noise主音吉他手徐平同志说最近一直在练原音,还挑战我说我唱不唱得出来nirvana的味道,mlgb不果实unplugged,算个屁,我有我自己的味道,nirvana于我只是一个符号,我管它娘。
 
Nirvana Oh me
 
If I had to lose a mile
If I had to touch feelings
I would lose my soul
The way I do
I don't have to think
I only have to do it
The results are always perfect
And that's old news
Would you like to hear my voice
Sprinkled with emotion
Invented at your birth?
I can't see the end of me
My whole expanse I cannot see
I formulate infinity
Stored deep inside me
If I had to lose a mile
If I had to touch feelings
I would lose my soul
The way I do
I don't have to think
I only have to do it
The results are always perfect
And that's old news
Would you like to hear my voice
Sprinkled with emotion
Invented at your birth?
I can't see the end of me
My whole expanse I cannot see
I formulate infinity
Stored deep inside me
Stored deep inside me
 
手机终于寿终正寝,彻底发不出消息也拨不出电话了……购新手机一部,诺基亚1112,价值400元,爱不释手。妈妈得知之后居然发了这样一条短信给我:儿子又是计划之外的开支,那你还有没有钱吃饭?。。。
人生啊,我为何是如此的穷困?还有十天发工资,提前庆祝第一次超过五位数。
 
对了,我这么傻比的原因就是要告诉你们,文艺青年真的全部都是装的。
 
 
 
 
 
2月18日

The very spring festval

又是一年春来到
过节了~朱小宝不许我回家。
北京就是北京,在这儿这个时候是真正的过年。街上没有出租车,没有开门的商店。年三十的时候当我和同事夫妇不信邪,依然坐两个小时车到中关村买相机,发现所有的商厦统统关门的时候,我感受到什么叫做过年。
然后抛开坐了半天车就为了吃顿廉价麦当劳的郁闷,我开始想家想老婆。北京的太阳超级好,晒得我眼前眩晕,公交车慢慢的一颠一颠的开着,我在摇晃中阖着双眼,不停的头痛,不停的想念。
五点到七点一个人拍着篮球在体育馆度过,所有的灯光都是给我开的,值回票价。
年夜饭吃的是方便粉丝。在新的一年到来之际,我面对着电脑屏幕,右上方是朱小宝的脸,左边一些是两个赤膊的男人在博斗,窗外传来不绝的鞭炮声,真是超现实。。。
朱小宝,爸爸陪你一起难过,希望这样你可以少难过些。
 
初一的阳光还是很好很好,有些微风,路上很少车也很少人,happy,天地仿佛是我一个人的。可惜昨天没有买到相机,唉唉。
我惊喜地发现中芯花园小超市香格里拉香烟一条只要80元。。。
明天会怎么样,后天会怎么样,还有大后天。
 
 
幸福的子弹
词/曲:郑钧

我无法抵挡
这可怜的眼光
也无处躲藏
只会让你感到失望
当你象个孩子一样
依偎在我身旁
我就像个大人那样
心里充满绝望
唉嗨 唉嗨 难道非要这样
唉嗨 唉嗨 难道非要这样
我不想躲闪
你的泪如子弹
亲爱的来吧
将这无望的心洞穿
当你象个大人那样
只想把我刺伤
我就象个孩子一样
再次开始盼望
哎嗨 哎嗨 幸福就是这样
哎嗨 哎嗨 幸福就是这样
我怎么能离去
当你睡得正甜蜜
安静而又美丽
让我不忍心打扰你
别了 别了 别了 别了
1月24日

一篇日记

好久没有晚上一个人在听着歌写文字,而且居然听的没有什么鼓点和电琴。最近好累啊,累得每天貌似很
充实的样子……但是我晓得那只是充满,不是充实,我什么也没有怎么会充实?我来北京不就是为了这个
,让一堆垃圾占据我的身心,顺便锻炼身体:可是我怎么有些后悔呢。
人真是贱。宝贝,为了不知所谓,而且以后永远也不会知道是为了什么的事情忙得两眼深陷,头昏脑胀,
这本来是我用来逃避想你的办法。经过这样的两个星期,爸爸害怕了。我知道了为什么大部分的人的生活
会是那个样子,为什么会觉得爱情不再,会淡掉,会从进行曲变成若有若无的细细余音直到消失:要是不
够牛比,会意识不到自己为什么活着,会把目的忘掉,在无限的傻比兮兮的追求丢掉自己,到了最后可能
都想不起来自己追求的是什么,却还自得其乐。
幸好是我们俩个在一起。
 
 
发烧完毕。音乐里加了架子鼓,大量的架子鼓,哈哈哈哈。
今天出了一件最傻比的事,花了六十块打车到朝阳门,去中国人寿办理境外紧急救援保险。客服小姐拿出
保单:先生,在这儿填你的个人信息。
要求填护照号,但是我没有带,也不记得。
情急之下求救号码百事通:请问哪儿能跟据名字查到我的护照号码?现在急用。
先生给您出入境管理局的电话号码好吗。
比比比。。。。
你好,请帮我查一下我的护照号码,我叫傻比。
好的傻比先生,请您带上你的身份证每周一至周五上午八点到下午六点来民生路1800号出入境管理局柜面
查询。
再见……
送我来的出租车司机爽坏了,回去的路上给我讲现在钱不好挣,比不上上海的出租,一天只能拉3,400块
。。没有办法,直到先回宿舍拿了护照,再次原路返回,再再次原路返回。
总共结算用了250块整,太贴切了,我不原意但却不能不意识到其中的讽刺之处。
 
 
车上听广播,两个女人讲20岁的女人和30岁的女人,还有不少观众踊跃发段信参与讨论。其中一个女主持
他要是男人,会比较喜欢30岁的,因为比较成熟,有思想,不会那么麻烦男人,不需要用男人太多时间,
轻松而快活。听到这段我就想,现在的女人真好啊,又骚又不用负责,我为什么结婚了。不光是男人比较
贱么,朱小宝?
但是后来放的两首歌很小资,很温柔,天外飞仙,用主持人的话说是就像一个晴朗的夏天独自一个人坐在
阳光下喝咖啡。。。。太他妈公式化了,这种病态的心情惹人怜爱,永远都是。缺爱的才会吸引人,否则
世界是什么样?但是真的太俗了,可就连我也避免不了这样的心境,人真是贱的可以。
继续说20岁和30岁。用油画和水墨画做比;用酒,茶或者咖啡做比;用交响乐和轻音乐作比。这一大堆东
西,而男人是什么都想要的,同时,我要是没有结婚,又只好同时搞一个20岁的,一个30岁的:早上喝咖
啡,听轻音乐,晚上喝酒听交响乐。唉唉,小宝啊小宝,我太幸运了。
后来听着这些狗屎睡着了,直到司机将我叫醒,给我四张连在一起的发票,一脸淫笑。
 
 
小宝在给我打早电话的时候很难过,我也很难过。不管什么样的抱怨和难受,都绝对不会让事情变得哪怕
好上一丁点,不要低头。我这样安慰她,也这样安慰我自己。
 
Heart Shaped Box
Band:Nirvana
 
She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart Shaped box for weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black
 
Hey!
Wait!
I've got a little complain
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet
Cut myself on Angel Hair and baby's breath
Broken hymen of your highness I'm left black
Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back
 

 
12月18日

终于有了一年以上计划

要办婚事。
今天去参加了哥们儿的婚礼,回来最大的感觉就是,我和朱小宝不能这样子,喝酒,一大队亲戚和小孩,其乐融融。那样子的酒席等到回家的时候再办吧,我做主的时候不这样。
 
12月11日

静夜思

取这个名字的我觉得我很骚。可能是因为感冒的原因,从很小的电脑屏幕后面的镜子里可以清楚地看到我自己,红扑扑的大脸,顶着一个蘑菇头,真可爱,哈哈。
可是亲爱的,你不在我身边。
这是一句又老又土的话语,但是对我而言这是条件反射的,当看到好玩的不好玩的事情,遇见好玩的不好玩的人,或者有了兴高采烈或者灰头土脸的经历,我在所有情绪涌起的的一瞬间只有这一个感觉,只能想到这一句话,这有什么?亲爱的你不在我身边。然后就觉得意兴索然。
所以我知道你是我生命的意义所在,我现在流着鼻涕发烧得头晕目眩在这儿想念你,在镜子里照照我自己。
朱小宝,爸爸在家里已经收拾出来三箱子啦,在每个箱子都贴了标签,“朱小宝无穷无尽的内衣和爸爸乱七八糟的球服”,“朱小宝穿上去最丑的衣服们”,“所有的工具们和一条地毯”。乱七八糟的东西变成方正的纸箱,有快感有伤感。
有没有一些事情是你知道问题在那儿但是却永远无法解决的?我觉得没有,所谓理由都是借口。
我们怎么纪念我们的爱情?一方面我想把这个记录在永远不会退色或者变质的载体里面,比如钻石,但是另一方面我觉得既然说好生生世世在一起,又何必要专门找个东西来纪念。不过没有下辈子真可怕:等到我们的意识和躯体灰飞烟灭,甚至所有听说过知道过我们的人们也全部不存在的时候,纪念我们的钻石却在闪闪发光,这太残酷,我不接受。
节制快活还是放纵快活?又是各有各的好,bla bla bla,我恨模棱两可,我爱变化, damn it. 睡觉。要是在梦见你的时候你刚好来电,那太帅了。
11月24日

朱小宝。。

晚上吃的脑满肠肥之后,朱小宝习惯性的与我聊人生讲未来。想来想去都必须要工作,好累啊= = “爸爸我要写书赚钱!”
太赞了,写什么书?
“你知道山药吧?”
“知道。”
“要是你直接手洗山药手痒痒,不舒服,你知道为啥吧?”
“。。。”
“因为山药是碱性的,。。你知道怎么样才能不痒痒吧?”
“。。。”
“你提前用醋洗洗手就行了,知道吧?”
“不知道,小宝真厉害。”
“还有更厉害的,就算你直接洗了山药,手痒痒了也有办法!”
“!!咋办涅”
“再用醋洗洗手。。。”
“= =。。|||牛比,但是这个和写书啥关系?”
“每天积累一条,积累一年,出本书,叫《日日生活小常识》!!”
“·#%%……%%—·¥·”
4月2日

阿布霍森

“我知道,我不是个好父亲,”阿布霍森平静的说,“所有的阿布霍森都是不称职的家长。当我们成为阿布霍森时,很多东西一去不返。我们为大我牺牲了小我,在艰难险厄中失却了温存。我们必须心无旁骛。你是我的女儿,我一直爱着你。但现在,我的时间已经不多了,心跳一万次之后,我的生命就会永远终止,而这之前我必须要战胜一个凶恶的敌人。现在,我们的关系不再是父女,也不能是父女。我们是前任阿布霍森和他的继承人——不过,即使如此,我还是爱着你。”
3月27日

The last day on earth

Yesterday was a million years ago
In all my past lives I played an asshole
Now I found you, it's almost too late
And this earth seems oblivion
We are trembling in our crutches
High and dead our skin is glass
I'm so empty here without you
I crack and split my xerox hands

I know it's the last day on earth
We'll be together while the planet dies
I know it's the last day on earth
We'll never say goodbye

赞,太赞了。我们可能永远不能进入《光明王》里头描写的轮回,我可能没办法爱你到这个星球毁灭,但是可以到我自己毁灭。
3月11日

Old songs

The Man Who Sold The World
 
We passed upon the stair
We spoke of was and when
Although I wasn't there
He said I was his friend
Which came as a surprise
I spoke into his eyes
I thought you died alone
A long long time ago

Oh no, not me
We never lost control
You're face to face
With The Man Who Sold The World

I laughed and shook his hand
And made my way back home
I searched for form and land
For years and years I roamed
I gazed a gazeless stare
At all the millions here
I must have died alone
A long, long time ago

Who knows?
Not me
We never lost control
You're face to face
With the Man who Sold the World
 
吃得好饱。。但是夸下海口要跑步,不得不硬着头皮来到校园。今天的天气格外的好,不冷。
依然饱的跑不动,没有办法,买杯咖啡抽两根烟权作休息,哼着老调子等着消化。
 
many a hand has scaled the grand old face of the plateau
some belong to strangers and some to folks you know
holy ghosts and talk show hosts are planted in the sand
to beautify the foothills and shake the many hands

there's nothing on the top but a bucket and a mop
and an illustrated book about birds
you see a lot up there but don't be scared
who needs action when you got words
 
还不晚,天还算亮,球场上有白天不敢出来踢球的在瞎玩,教育超市周围的椅子照例坐满了真假情人们。真的很好,很漂亮:可惜宝贝儿,你不在我身边。我没法子一个人享受。
 
If I had to lose a mile
If I had to touch feelings
I would lose my soul
The way I do

I don't have to think
I only have to do it
The results are always perfect
And that's old news

Would you like to hear my voice
Sprinkled with emotion
Invented at your birth?

I can't see the end of me
My whole expanse I cannot see
I formulate infinity
Stored deep inside me
跑啊跑,流了很多汗,还有些肚子疼,嗓子也不舒服,这样我可以用更沙哑的调子哼歌,还吓着了一个姑娘。。。喜力文抱怨我每次当你回来前一个月就开始天天唠叨体重问题,我考,哈哈,哈哈。乐死我了。
我喜欢这种身心俱疲。可惜明天还要上班,无限的干。
 
I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezeburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married, Maried, Maried!
Buried!
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
 
 
 
 
3月4日

啊……

得到一本书需要付出什么?六个小时听意大利人讲英语。
失去一本涅?忘记从自行车筐里头拿出来,过了一分钟再回去拿……
失败,没有押韵 = =|
2月19日

物竞天择

远征军总部似乎永恒不灭。它经受住了上次大规模轰炸的考验。它是在总参谋部的监督下于十五年前修建的。因此,它兴许是这儿唯一安全的避难所。

现在,它是一个没有国界的国家。建造它几乎用完了所能发现的要塞伪装和盔板防卫的所有技术,无论是炮弹还是毒气都不会对它产生任何作用。而它的最深层隐秘处还是防原子弹和放射性尘埃的。只有疾病和细菌能给这里的人带来较大的死亡它在地下占地约五万平方码,处于一座雄峻的高山的优良位置。里面的每个房间都要超过八十尺,并且每个房间都被设计成可以承受住能够炸毁二十座城市的巨型炸弹的一击。从安全角度来看,这里可谓是无懈可击,所以总部一直巍然挺立。这里距离残破的巴黎还有一段距离,离大海的距离就更远了,这是为了防止来自那边的侵袭。这里由三十九个将军轮流指挥。他们所缺乏的就是必备的供给,时局动荡更使他们的窘境雪上加霜。每个通风机本身就像一座堡垒。它由错综复杂的迷宫般的过滤器护卫着,因为过滤器可以把空气中所有不纯净的东西滤掉。除此之外,每间房里都有个储氧罐,足够一百人吸一个月的。水也很足,因为这地方将近有十座喷水井,有两座井是靠自身压力运作的。照明是由酒精动力驱动,太阳镜系统做辅助。通讯本身是被忽略的,因为以前只有电话和无线电。因为需要铜,所以电话就被搁置一边;当野战军储备的电池渐渐用完之后,无线电也就一无是处了。偶尔,还建立起与英格兰的通讯联络,但此刻也没有这种必要了。 外表上看,这里只是个小山丘,四周的原野已被不断的轰炸撕裂得面目全非。因为开阔地太大,想要接近它也很难。四外有十来处类似这里的起伏山丘,所以敌。方飞行员常常搞错目标,直到整个地区类似处都被标记后,方才恍然大悟。被烧焦后已经生锈的坦克和变了形的飞机渐渐与泥土融为一体。

 

 总之,这里是理想的总部。万无一失的将军们会从此处把军队派出去当炮灰。

2月16日

new sh*t

Everything has been said before
Nothing left to say anymore
When it's all the same
You can ask for it by name
Babble babble, Bitch bitch
Rebel rebel, Party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the violence
Blah blah blah
Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely
Stick your stupid slogan in
Everybody sing along
 
Are you motherfuckers ready for the new shit!?
Stand up and admit, tomorrow's never coming!
This is the new shi*t!
Stand up and admit!
Do we get it!? (No!)
Do we want it!? (Yeah!)
This is the new shit!
Stand up and admit!
Now it's you-know-who
I got the you-know-what
I stick it you-know-where
You know why, you don't care
 
so let us enertain u
2月10日

Nobodies

Marilyn Manson
The Nobodies


Today I am dirty
I want to be pretty
Tomorrow, I know I'm just dirt

Today I am dirty
I want to be pretty
Tomorrow, I know I'm just dirt

We are the nobodies
we wanna be somebodies
when we're dead,
they'll know just who we are

We are the nobodies
we wanna be somebodies
when we're dead,
they'll know just who we are

Yesterday I was dirty
wanted to be pretty
I know now that I'm forever dirt

Yesterday I was dirty
wanted to be pretty
I know now that I'm forever dirt

We are the nobodies
we wanna be somebodies
when we're dead,
they'll know just who we are

We are the nobodies
we wanna be somebodies
when we're dead,
they'll know just who we are

Some children died the other day
we fed machines and then we prayed
puked up and down in morbid faith
you should have seen the ratings that day
 
 
Sweet Dreams
Sweet dreams are made of this.
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas.
Everybody's looking for something.


Some of them want to use you.
Some of them want to get used by you.
Some of them want to abuse you.
Some of them want to be abused.


I wanna use you and abuse you.
I wanna know what's inside you.
 
 
Lamb Of God
There was Christ in the metal shell
there was blood on the pavement
The camera will make you god
that's how Jack became sainted

If you die when there's no one watching
and your ratings drop and you're forgotten
if they kill you on their TV
you're a martyr and a lamb of god
nothing's going to change
nothing's going to change the world

There was Lennon and a happy gun
There were words on the pavement
we were looking for the lamb of god
we were looking for Mark David

If you die when there's no one watching
and your ratings drop and you're forgotten
if they kill you on their TV
you're a martyr and a lamb of god

Nothing's going to change the world
nothing's going to change
Nothing's going to change the world
nothing's going to change
the world

it took three days for him to die
the born again could buy the serial rights
lamb of god have mercy on us
lamb of god won't you grant us

Nothing's going to change the world
nothing's going to change
Nothing's going to change the world
nothing's going to change
the world

If you die when there's no one watching
and your ratings drop and you're forgotten
if they kill you on their TV
you're a martyr and a lamb of god
nothing's going to change the world
2月3日

2/2

到底是麻醉和迷幻好呢还是清醒好?
天呐,我可别老去。。。但是我发现我已经没有勇气抛开一切了,小乖乖,只有你在我身边我才能面对一切。
我是无限的么?不是。太阳是孤独的,我不是。我好像无法抵抗,我需要一个拥抱,一滴眼泪。
我爱你生活,我是你弱小孩子。
2月1日

why always need a f**k title!!!!

我不急,我只是有些失眠。干。
1月31日

  格兰特把身分证递了过去,卡片上只有一个凸出的号码,对此,军官随便看了一眼。他把卡片插进桌上的鉴定器,格兰特无精打采地在一旁看着。这东西同他那个皮夹鉴定器一模一样,只是特别大,是特大型号。灰白色平淡无奇的屏幕亮了起来,显示出他的整个正面和侧面像,在他自己眼里——情况总是这样——是一付凶神恶煞似的歹徒模样。   那诚恳坦率的面容,而今安在?那迷人的笑貌而今安在?使姑娘们心醉着迷的脸上的酒靥而今安在?而今留下的只是使他显得满脸怒容的黝黑而紧皱低垂的眉毛。奇怪的是居然还能使人认出是他。

 

        昨天下午逃班的时候不幸被工程部老板发现,为了稳住它与其闲话家常。。被问到为何要在这无聊又没有挑战性的职位上呆着,不如去国外读点书长点见识?

       --啊呀老板,你说得不错,可惜我是这样儿的人,胸无大志,我想要的已经得到了。要是没有什么另外的别的刺激的话我是不会想要改变的。

      --你可真是够懒,不过我告诉你哦,诚所谓人在江湖,身不由己,当年我也像你一样,只想在家乡找个老婆,生几个孩子,平平淡淡的过一辈子的,但是没办法,现在我还是在异国他乡来找饭吃?

      --嘻,那说明俺还没到时候,如果显示要我改变,我当然会改变啦,还不到时候。

     -- 你现在这么年轻,有资本的亚,等再过几年就没得变了。

     -- 对自己有点儿信心,我想改变生活的时候就能改变。每个人都是,你也一样。

    -- 说真的,我其实一直相当一名兽医。。。可惜又没有夜大上这种课

    -- 那就辞了工作去念个穴位好了,你又没有什么后顾之忧

    -- 哼哼,说得轻巧,我两个孩子要养阿

     -- 让你老婆养

    -- 我老婆……好懒的,喜欢过家庭主妇的生活,她肯定不可能。。。

 

      好了,故事讲完了。

      有两个问题。

      1。 如何能保持一往无前?

      2。 你的爱是否会成为你的牵袢?

 

     今天我在想你,小乖乖,然后我记起以前对你说的话,有这么一段,在你问我为什么这些人如此作践自己,耐不住寂寞的时候:每个牛比的人,比如你我,都是能够自给自足的,旁的人只是其本身的辅助,加上了让她看上去鲜亮一点,去掉了也没什么关系,低调一点儿罢了,都不会变化其本质。就好比你的手机,有了摄像头,mp3,收音机,大喇叭,但是它还是一个手机,就算这些附加功能全部没有,还是一个手机。可是有些傻比呢忘记他本身是什么了,沉迷于乒乒乓乓的热闹里头,于是他只好去不停的找啊找。

     但是我们现在都不是自给自足的人了,我在厕所里抽烟的时候郁闷的想,乖乖,该死的你不在我身边,你与我要受这么多苦。

     快乐着你的快乐,痛苦着你的痛苦,方向着你的方向,我们两个合起来叫做一个比较合适。所以呢,尽管目前还没有完满,问题却都有了答案。